Watched The Time Traveller's Wife with Meen at Tropicana City Mall. A touching story. I don't usually cry at movies. This time around I did, but tidaklah smpai mencurah2  I understood how Claire felt not knowing when Henry was going to travel through time and how he would suddenly disappear. No power over it, not being able to control, the need to wait, the whole uncertainty about it. I think everyone can relate to that at some point.

I realise from recent events, I will never be able to trust anyone. You may say I have issues, but from this point onwards, I am going to stop and let everything go. I'm tired lah.

Tata.

• I like TM's new advert and Bunkface's new song for it. Sangat comel & sweet.
• Futsal practice yesterday was damn tiring. Next week we have a friendly match with the Credit Card team. I enjoy training with the new coach, I call him Coach Rempit coz he used to be a Mat Rempit. After he broke his back bone & lost a tooth while rempit-ing, he then kembali ke pangkal jalan and is now a full-time coach. He put me as striker for the team. I think I'm better at defending but it's alright, the striker still has to defend when needed and defenders still need to strike whenever opportunity comes.
• This year we're having our Annual Dinner after all! It won't be a 2 days-1 night getaway to Lumut like last year. Just a dinner function at the KL Convention Centre. Can't wait to find out the theme of the night!
• I was reading IkanStim's blog and I kinda agree with an entry he wrote about comparing. Sometimes parents like to compare their children and say things that might hurt their child. For example, Parent A says "Why are you like this? Why can't you be more like your brotherr? He's smart, pandai, bijak, cerdik, pintar, damn good dan segala perkataan seerti dengannya bla bla bla". What happens if the child starts comparing Parent A's car with Uncle B's car? (Uncle B is Parent A's brother). For example, "Why do you drive a Proton Saga? Why can't you drive a BMW like Uncle B?". ("tak cukup duit" kenapa tak cukup duit mcm Uncle B? "gaji tak besar" kenapa gaji tak besar mcm Uncle B? etc) Haa, tak terasa anak compare you with your brother or sister? Moral: Don't compare. Give support, motivation, smart advice & words of wisdom.
• Men: At first they are always concerned about you and make sure you're okay. Then the concerns and the caringness tu slowly fades away ke apa ke, tak tahu la apa jadi. Malas or penat kot? Hazel, who is 5 months pregnant now, told me a funny story recently. "Hari pertama aku muntah2 kat toilet, hubby datang cepat2 tanya ok tak syg, nak air tak syg. Hari kedua, ketiga pun sama. Sampai hari kesepuluh aku muntah2 kat toilet, aku tunggu je hubby datang. Mana dia ni, tak dengar ke aku muntah. Aku tak dengar pun dia lari datang ke toilet. Sampai ke sudah tak datang pun. Later bila aku dah habis muntah, keluar dari bilik, dia tanya, tadi u muntah ke syg? Ceh, tanya tu je, dah tak tanya lebih2 dah".  Moral: Cuba lah caring dengan consistent. Ladies love it and you'll get plenty of mushy-mushy lovey-dovey points.

Sometimes work can really take its toll on you. One thing I really dislike about it is the fact that there'll always be someone in the office or someone out there who just can't wait to see you make a mistake and fall. I think it's ok to make mistakes coz that's one of the effective ways to learn real fast. If we don't learn anything from our mistakes, then, that's another story. Alhamdulillah, at this moment, I still have my patience. I love my work, but not all the time, and I know that's normal. There are days I feel like working my ass off, improving to another level to show others I CAN DO IT.. but there are other days when I really just wanna move somewhere else where I can forget about all the competition and the possibility of being looked down at. Sigh. Sometimes we live and work hard not to achieve our personal goals, but to impress others. Others being loved ones and even strangers. That is a lot of pressure man. I think I'm lucky to be so near to someone who has been long enough in the industry and so patient, almost 2 years as Acting CEO and finally now, he gets to officially be the CEO of Maybank Islamic. I have to learn how to be as patient as him and not give up.

Looks like I won't make it to Kelantan for Along's wedding. I forgot that my cousin Abg Emy will be getting married on that day at the TTDI Community Hall, so I surely have to prioritize my family than others. I told his mum last month that I'll be there to become the pengapit AND the flower girl. Hehe siap volunteer, semangat gile nak ambik berkat pengantin.

Speaking of that, I dapat a 'proposal' last night at the gym. Haha, it suprised me a bit. Azim & I were talking about love and relationships, and at the end of the conversation, when I was about to enter the changing room, Azim said to me "Sha, kite dua je lah kawin..".
I looked at him, paused, and burst out laughing "Mana boleh!"..
and with a confused look he asked "Kenapa??"
Erk kenapa ek?? "Sebab.. ermmm.. mmm.. (silence)...sebab Azim gila!" Hmm. What a stupid answer. Sian mamat tu.